Why do I see myself as an artist of life?

Hi, my name is Elanor.

It’s a label.

I’m a musician. A songwriter. A violinist. A writer. A multi-passionate entrepreneur. A spiritual transformer. A “soon-becoming-something-else-that-I-don’t-know-yet”...

They are all labels.

Funny, isn’t it? We use so many labels to describe ourselves and rarely they can tell who we truly are.

It’s difficult for me to come up with a label when people ask me who I am and what I do for a living, because I can't find one that can describe me wholeheartedly. So for years, I gave up and tried to avoid the “traditional” conversations. But it’s not easy. To escape from the mundane and try to emerge authentically. As we all want to make things simpler, categorize our experiences into boxes so that we can feel safe and this includes also the people we meet. But if there is one label that I would like to put on me, what would that be?

You guess it- yes, it would be “an artist of life”.

As an artist, I’m free to explore.

To experiment.

And to fail.

I can create my unique expression by merging different paths that I’ve explored. It’s an alchemic process where I turn past failures into meaning, passion into vocation, and purpose. It’s also about pushing the limitations and widening the field of possibilities, knowing that life is limitless even though I have finite resources.

As an artist, I also face self-doubt, fear, the so-called “whether-I-am-good-enough-issue”. But funny enough, when I see myself as an artist of life, these issues fade away. Life doesn’t care about perfection because it’s always in the process of learning, evolving, and expanding. There is no “one-size-fits-all” answer and I don’t have to live up to anything.

Instead, life just wants me to show up and listen to the evolutionary impulse in my heart, telling me the next right step to take. And do it. Be it. But most importantly, detach myself from the result.

In the end, we’re all artists of life. We try our best to live each day meaningfully, even though we are not conscious of it. We want the freedom to learn, to change, to grow, and to show our best selves to the world when we feel safe enough. So perhaps when we see ourselves as artists of life, we could ask a different question:

Instead of asking:

“what can I do for a living?”, we could ask:

“what do I want to create that brings out joy, peace, healing, happiness etc. if I choose to believe that I have all the resources available to me?”

Because here is the secret: Life always gives you the resources that you need to do the “next right thing”!

Yes, it’s an ALWAYS. This is the wisdom that I’ve gained from my 30+ years of spiritual transformation. I’ve learned that many of my limitations that I used to put on myself in the past; they were not real. The realities were different, and if I had shifted my mentality, life could have manifested differently. And life always shows the next right step, not the step number 10 or 100!

So, what is it really, an artist of life?